Well, as some of you know, my birthday was Tuesday.. feb. 10th. and I turned 47 yr old!!! Oh man, where did the time go?! Seems just like yesterday I was hitting 20, then 30, then 40 and now bumping that 50 mark! Only thing is, my mind never thinks I am hahaha..
But I had an awesome day... started out with everyone wishing me happy birthday that morning, then my mom and dad came over and brought me a cheese cake!! awesome!! haha.. and got some money too haha.. then, later that day I needed to go to town, so my oldest daughter says... I'll take you, I said ok.. let's go.
So off we go.. and she proceeds to tell me, oh by the way, you have an appointment at 2 pm., I'm like, "what appointment?" She proceeds to tell me, and I'm like OOHHH NOOO haha.. I'm looking at her going.. I didn't shave my legs and I have holes in my socks LOL. So we run through Wal-Mart real quick and I grab razors and stuff, and dry shave my legs in Wal-Mart restroom hahaha.. got my self ready and head off to my appointment.
Now, this was my first ever real professional massage! and all I can say is it's AWESOME!
I was in sheer heaven. One of the best birthday presents I have ever had haha..
Now, I wasn't expecting much at all, cause money is tight, and we have things to take care of, but hubby wanted to treat me. And believe it or not, hubby didn't even tell me about it. He and my daughter set it up for me! Now is that a surprise or what? haha All I could think about while laying there was, thank you god, thank you!
Now to some this may not seem like much, but for me, it was more than I can say. I stay so tense most of the time, and have so much going on that I never seem to just relax and for me, it was just ME time.. time that I could let my mind rest and let go.. and for that one hour I let ME rest and that felt so good.
So to my hubby, I say thank you for the most awesome gift he has ever given me!!
And to God who set one hour aside just for me!
Thank YOU!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
A Tuff Time Is A Blessing
I know my SIL loosing his job has been a test for them. But they trust God and know that he's taking care of them. He's watching out for their every need.
But for me, it's been a blessing. Sometimes I think God done this just for me. Strange I know, but at times looking around, I see him blessing me through this.
For some time I had health issues and unable to get many things done that I wanted and needed to do. Things that need to be fixed, or cleaned out.. work done in my yard. So I would just have to do what I could and let the rest go. Well, after awhile it would get to me. Seeing everything and knowing that it had gotten to large for me to do. I would just say.. ok Lord, you're gonna have to help me with this.. cause it's more than I can handle. And he has.
Since Melissa and Brian have been here, they have helped me so much on getting things organized, moved around, cleaning out our old travel trailer and getting it ready to have hauled off. Brian has done work in the yard that I had a hard time doing like trimming trees, bushes, and such. He woke up one morning and said God talked to him about idle hands and from that point on he's been working so hard.
There have been so many things that they have helped me with. When I set here and look around, it just touches my heart. It's like getting your life back again. Things that seem so over whelming to me, things I thought would take forever.. are now dwindling away. A huge weight has been lifted off me.
I am just so amazed at how God works, how he can take a time like this and turn it into such a blessing. I know that God will bless them for this. I know he will continue to take care of them and I believe when God is finished here, Brian's new job will fall right into place. But in the mean time, I am thanking God for blessing me, for helping me like he has.. See, God cares about all those things in our lives. God knows what a weight it has been on me, and he wanted to take that off me... and I thank him for that.
So no matter what the enemy has thrown at us, God has taken it and turned it to good. And all I can say is..
Thank You Lord!
But for me, it's been a blessing. Sometimes I think God done this just for me. Strange I know, but at times looking around, I see him blessing me through this.
For some time I had health issues and unable to get many things done that I wanted and needed to do. Things that need to be fixed, or cleaned out.. work done in my yard. So I would just have to do what I could and let the rest go. Well, after awhile it would get to me. Seeing everything and knowing that it had gotten to large for me to do. I would just say.. ok Lord, you're gonna have to help me with this.. cause it's more than I can handle. And he has.
Since Melissa and Brian have been here, they have helped me so much on getting things organized, moved around, cleaning out our old travel trailer and getting it ready to have hauled off. Brian has done work in the yard that I had a hard time doing like trimming trees, bushes, and such. He woke up one morning and said God talked to him about idle hands and from that point on he's been working so hard.
There have been so many things that they have helped me with. When I set here and look around, it just touches my heart. It's like getting your life back again. Things that seem so over whelming to me, things I thought would take forever.. are now dwindling away. A huge weight has been lifted off me.
I am just so amazed at how God works, how he can take a time like this and turn it into such a blessing. I know that God will bless them for this. I know he will continue to take care of them and I believe when God is finished here, Brian's new job will fall right into place. But in the mean time, I am thanking God for blessing me, for helping me like he has.. See, God cares about all those things in our lives. God knows what a weight it has been on me, and he wanted to take that off me... and I thank him for that.
So no matter what the enemy has thrown at us, God has taken it and turned it to good. And all I can say is..
Thank You Lord!
Saturday, January 31, 2009
I Needed To See.
Ok, many people don’t even know that at times I struggle with fears. As I’m sure most of us do. But at times they try to hit me pretty hard. And the last few weeks It’s tried to break me down.
For several years I suffered from sever acid reflux and other stomach troubles. And with this come many pains and pains in the chest. And at times can make you feel like your going to die. And trust me, at that point you start praying and praying hard. With all this, it had begun working on me… or should say the enemy was working on me… and at times it can cause panic attacks. And those are no fun too.
Every one that knows me knows I am a born again Christian, that I love the lord and do my very best for him. So with this said, how can I, a child of god have these fears? Fears that have been tormenting me day and night. Fears that can grab me so hard and cause sheer panic in me? And to top that off, my family and friends diden't even know it most of the time. I never say anything.. I just get up and walk around the house a lot, or keep my mind busy on the computer setting here thinking, and most of all praying. How can I, Gods child; have this? It has been a struggle in my mind and spirit. Asking God all the time, Lord, what is wrong with me? I’m yours; I shouldn’t even be feeling this way. I of all people should know better? I’m speaking your word, I’m praying, I’m doing all that I know to do… so why?
As I began reading a book the other day.. “Curing the Incurable – How to receive healing in hopeless situations” forward by R.W. Shambach, book by Jack Coe. God showed me some things. There are 5 keys to healing in the book, but what God began to reveal to my heart was this… he said.. you know how you set and see yourself sick? You know how you see yourself afraid to even go to town alone, or even go into the bathroom without your cell phone when home alone?… god said, you see these things in your minds eye.. You see the fear, you see things happening to you… you SEE the bad but pray for the Good.. and I had to stop in my tracks and say…. Oh lord, you are right!! I SEE these things in my mind. Oh Lord, I am so sorry! I felt so bad. Why? Because I’m always telling others.. you have to SEE what God is doing in YOUR life.. and here I was not even seeing my own!! It sadden my heart to the point of crying.
God said, Patty… remember your favorite verse in the bible? The one you named Jessie after? I said, yes.. Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things not seen… He said, Patty… say this with me.. NOW, Faith is the substance of THINGS HOPED FOR!!… and I did, and he said… what do you hope for? What you HOPE for, you SEE. When you set and dream of things.. you see them in your minds eye… your heart.. you see yourself going places that you dream of, or buying something you would love to own.. you see yourself driving that new car, or spending your life with that one you love.. you SEE these things… you HOPE these things. And God said…….. Patty….. SEE yourself healed.. see yourself with NO Fear.. see yourself doing and going where I send you.. SEE yourself the way you pray. I said…Oh Lord, I understand… I must SEE myself as YOU say I am!!
Well, all I could do was cry.. and I began to speak out.. Lord, your word says… now FAITH is the substance of things HOPE FOR.. And with my heart, my minds eye… I HOPE, I SEE myself healed.. I see myself going each day with NO FEAR, I SEE myself walking again with JOY, no pain, no fear, I SEE myself doing the work that you set me here for!! Thank you Lord, that I Can SEE.. I SEE what I HOPE for!!
I have been doing this every day now, and when those fears, those panic attacks, that pain comes, when the enemy says.. you’ll never be better, you’ll never go and be normal again, you’ll always feel this way… I say NO, my God says HOPE, SEE… and I SEE ALL that He has for me, and I walk in that! I no longer SEE what you are trying to show me, I SEE what MY God says I am!! I SEE it in Jesus Name!!
What happens when we do this.. God has made a way of escape for me, he has set me free from the chains that try to hold me back.. He makes the enemy flee from me. And Gives me hope!!
What do you SEE in your life? What pictures play over and over in your minds eye? Do you see endless doom and gloom? Never having enough? Always being sick? always fallings short? Well stop… and say NO, this is what I SEE, and begin to say it out loud and cause the enemy to flee from your life. And walk where God wants you to walk.
Why did I poor my heart out here? Why did I put myself out there for all to see? Why did I show a side that know one sees? Because God is using me to be a witness to all, and that means that I’m walking where HE wants me too and that those fears have no hold on me!
Open your heart today and begin to SEE!
For several years I suffered from sever acid reflux and other stomach troubles. And with this come many pains and pains in the chest. And at times can make you feel like your going to die. And trust me, at that point you start praying and praying hard. With all this, it had begun working on me… or should say the enemy was working on me… and at times it can cause panic attacks. And those are no fun too.
Every one that knows me knows I am a born again Christian, that I love the lord and do my very best for him. So with this said, how can I, a child of god have these fears? Fears that have been tormenting me day and night. Fears that can grab me so hard and cause sheer panic in me? And to top that off, my family and friends diden't even know it most of the time. I never say anything.. I just get up and walk around the house a lot, or keep my mind busy on the computer setting here thinking, and most of all praying. How can I, Gods child; have this? It has been a struggle in my mind and spirit. Asking God all the time, Lord, what is wrong with me? I’m yours; I shouldn’t even be feeling this way. I of all people should know better? I’m speaking your word, I’m praying, I’m doing all that I know to do… so why?
As I began reading a book the other day.. “Curing the Incurable – How to receive healing in hopeless situations” forward by R.W. Shambach, book by Jack Coe. God showed me some things. There are 5 keys to healing in the book, but what God began to reveal to my heart was this… he said.. you know how you set and see yourself sick? You know how you see yourself afraid to even go to town alone, or even go into the bathroom without your cell phone when home alone?… god said, you see these things in your minds eye.. You see the fear, you see things happening to you… you SEE the bad but pray for the Good.. and I had to stop in my tracks and say…. Oh lord, you are right!! I SEE these things in my mind. Oh Lord, I am so sorry! I felt so bad. Why? Because I’m always telling others.. you have to SEE what God is doing in YOUR life.. and here I was not even seeing my own!! It sadden my heart to the point of crying.
God said, Patty… remember your favorite verse in the bible? The one you named Jessie after? I said, yes.. Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things not seen… He said, Patty… say this with me.. NOW, Faith is the substance of THINGS HOPED FOR!!… and I did, and he said… what do you hope for? What you HOPE for, you SEE. When you set and dream of things.. you see them in your minds eye… your heart.. you see yourself going places that you dream of, or buying something you would love to own.. you see yourself driving that new car, or spending your life with that one you love.. you SEE these things… you HOPE these things. And God said…….. Patty….. SEE yourself healed.. see yourself with NO Fear.. see yourself doing and going where I send you.. SEE yourself the way you pray. I said…Oh Lord, I understand… I must SEE myself as YOU say I am!!
Well, all I could do was cry.. and I began to speak out.. Lord, your word says… now FAITH is the substance of things HOPE FOR.. And with my heart, my minds eye… I HOPE, I SEE myself healed.. I see myself going each day with NO FEAR, I SEE myself walking again with JOY, no pain, no fear, I SEE myself doing the work that you set me here for!! Thank you Lord, that I Can SEE.. I SEE what I HOPE for!!
I have been doing this every day now, and when those fears, those panic attacks, that pain comes, when the enemy says.. you’ll never be better, you’ll never go and be normal again, you’ll always feel this way… I say NO, my God says HOPE, SEE… and I SEE ALL that He has for me, and I walk in that! I no longer SEE what you are trying to show me, I SEE what MY God says I am!! I SEE it in Jesus Name!!
What happens when we do this.. God has made a way of escape for me, he has set me free from the chains that try to hold me back.. He makes the enemy flee from me. And Gives me hope!!
What do you SEE in your life? What pictures play over and over in your minds eye? Do you see endless doom and gloom? Never having enough? Always being sick? always fallings short? Well stop… and say NO, this is what I SEE, and begin to say it out loud and cause the enemy to flee from your life. And walk where God wants you to walk.
Why did I poor my heart out here? Why did I put myself out there for all to see? Why did I show a side that know one sees? Because God is using me to be a witness to all, and that means that I’m walking where HE wants me too and that those fears have no hold on me!
Open your heart today and begin to SEE!
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